Something that you didn't realized,precious.

Is there a thing called love at first sight?
It's a question that I asked in the deep of night.
Then came you, the love of my life.
In just a few moment, I knew our love would be true.
I knew It was right under the full moonlight.
And I had my answer,
I had found love at first sight.
Caryne was the name,
The name that sparks the best out of me and brought me to fame.
They said,
Two hands to hold, two eyes to see, and two ears to listen,
But why only one heart?
Because you grab it and compile it to be one.
This is mend for you Caryne aka Fishy,
With abundance of love by yours truly.

To trust or not to trust?

Music: I will always love you-Whitney Houston
Time : 3.28pm

Sadly, I've no idea what I have to do. Having to bear the all those torment and loneliness without you is enough to blow my mind off. Though It's only today but it seems like almost 2 years. I admitted I relied on you too much, because of love. I'm not sure if there's still anymore love on me but seriously this irritating disease is ruining my life each day. Totally speechless and blank, what should I do? Leaving you is easy but forgetting you is too difficult. I may accept the fact that you've left me but what else I can do about it, to get you back or to let you go? After everything that I've done and made for you, are they worthless? Rumors had it that you're flirting around, some said you're seeing someone but who am I to trust, with the fact that I'm lost and despair. It's pointless to keep forcing you back on track with me. I don't know whether is this a test of trust or a fact that you've fall for someone.


P/S: Got the storyline from a touching Taiwan love drama. So decided to blog it.

If you can't get someone outta your head,
then they're mend to be there,forever.

Emo-ing

After you stepped out, things seems to be dull and not as fun as It should be like last time. Life without you is like an incomplete puzzle. Well, I don't really ask for much, as long as you're holding to our promises I'll be happy enough. Time may fly fast but a year sounded more exactly like ten years. No matter what, I'll always be by your side whenever you need me at time. I'll be there for you. And our love shall be glorified. Nevertheless, I'm still trying to cope back and slowly patching up the holes to lead my life back. For everything that had took place, happen for a reason.

After so long, I decided to make my blog alive back again,once more. Well, a lot of ups and downs, some I would say some shitty stuff that turn just into a huge bomb, happening during these long periods of time. After all, I'm glad that everything is getting back on track and the spark is starting to glow. A new chapter of my life I would say. Not every single human alive in this world is perfect,right? I'm sure most you guys will agree. Picture this, If a terrorist is able to hijack a plane, why not a guy can snatch of someone's other girlfriend. Personally, I learned my mistake from the past relationship ( Ikhwan's philosophy =D ) I made my mistake back few years ago and the feeling is unbearable. It's easy to fall in love but It's too difficult to ever leave someone, when the feeling is there for almost coming to two years. Frankly, I myself is unable to bear all these sufferings and torments by myself. Thanks to all my close friends and college mates, they shine my life back with humors, cock jokes, and etc. Subsequently, I'm glad and grateful that both of us are slowly patching up the holes in our journey to reach the aisle of happiness. Much <3 babe!

Mandy

Baby, I love you! A lot, a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot!! =)

Happy Half Year Anniversary Babe!

Well babe,I knew u might had a thought that I'm downloading porn materials or dotaing right?.Perhaps,I'm not.I was waiting for you to get to your bed and slowly sat down and get this done for you.It may not be that fancy or perfect as what you expected but I've tried my best to create a piece of my sincerity for you.Anyway,I'm real sorry for what I've done in the previous months and for all the wrongdoings and jealously that I've created to you babe,but in fact every single consequences of it do make the both us bonded even closer and tighter.Words may only expressed part of my love for you but the feelings and moments that we spent were the significant ones.ILY!

Idiot babe. LOL

ILY!

P.S.:You'll always gonna be my idiot-pig-kuai lan baby.I love you more each day. =D Happy Half Year Anniversary again! Cheers!

Holidays..

Holidays had just started.Kinda bit relaxed and feeling better.Anyway,get rid of this crap and get on the track with what i wana talk about.LOL.Woke up kinda early this morning,washed up and went down to Jelutong to fetch Patrick.Then he told me Alyn wanted to follow and I said okie but with one condition,I can't drop her back(Sorry ya,Pu Chor Ma xD ).Headed to Permata Sports Complex,Deriss reached,then Yeong Shuian,Beh,Chee Hong and we straight went in and get ourself wet,I mean sweat.LOL.Dropped Patrick home and went to babe's house.Got myself cleaned up and had a lil chat with her.Bla Bla Bla and then she massaged my back and did some whatever u call it facial tingy.(Much apologies,I don't know much bout facial product).LOL.And we ate KFC 'cheapest' item,stupid Popcorn Chicken which costs about 6bucks.Should've at McD,more worth it.Btw,I'm lazy to post up my pictures.Gonna post it next few days.


P.S.:Babe,I miss Monday.That was the best part. ILY =P

I'm back!

I'm back,people.I know its some time that I did'nt update my blog.Was having exams,not on purpose.Felt so right that exam is over after all.LOL.Time to enjoy and party around.Went to shisha on thursday with my two weirdo friends,Thum and Francis.The next day were my business studies paper and MUET,and that morning itself Sim brought beer to school and so,who cares,its only exam after all.Drank and went straight to sit for my papers.Did quite sucks on business paper.Don't care ler.LOL.And today was fun,went to Mandy's house in the afternoon.Had my dinner with her and then went back her house to play around.LOL.



P.S. :Deriss,my blog revived. =D

At last I'm free,was busy the whole day.From school to houseboi to driver.This is what happen when your house is not filled with a sister or a maid.Likewise what YDNAM said it's good doing it but I felt more to like child slavery.Anyway,I'm used to it.Don't give much fuck bout it anymore.2 more years and I'm off from this so-called happy family house.Alright,here comes the fun part.LOL.Initially,I didn't realise that there were a couple inside this Kenari until I parked my car beside them,and what I saw was totally hillarious.The guy was like busy french kissing with his girlfriend and his jeans unzipped.The girl was like busy doing some erotic massage(understand ler yea xD) inside his boyfriend's jeans.Eventually,the girl saw me looking at them and she's like kinda shocked and I just act as if I didn't saw anything.Consider the both of them unlucky la.LOL.

Tears and Sorrows

Because you have it,
They want it,
You have happiness,
They have sadness,
You have love,
They have hate,
They want it,
They want it so bad they are willing to hurt you,
The one thing that makes you the happiest ,
They take it away,
Its gone,
Life as you know it has ended and will never come back.

They Say,
Things they don't mean,
They say they love you,
They dont,
They say we are doing what's best for you,
Their not,
They say you will get over it,
Their wrong.

There is always someone,
There is always someone to love,
There is always someone to hate,
There is always someone you care for,
There is always someone you want to kill,
There is always someone that turns your sky blue,
There is always someone that turns your sky black,
There is always someone that makes your life worth living,
There is always someone that makes your life feel like nothing.

I miss You..

A black hole replaces the heart in my chest,
Because it knows that you're gone.
Numbness surrounding to once again supress,
The image of you,the perfection.
Cause as soon as I think of your face and your voice,
The pain swallows me whole.
Sickening,twisting,please help me forget,
The saddening feelings that you won't console.
I feel like I'm drowning,dying so slowly,
As I hope that one day you'll come back.
That hope is in vain,though isn't it now?
My love,my heart grows black.

Something We Called Love

I can't forget,
The day you took my breathe away,
And I can't pretend,
Tonight you're gonna stay here,
I see you,
In my dreams again,
Inside my soul,There's something you can find,
Something you can,
A mystery, A poetry,
Something we collide,
And you let my heart thumping,
On the first embrace.

One Week to Exam..

I know my blog is starting to rot.Ignore me aite,people.Got no time to update it.Busy with school activities and outings.*sigh* One more week to my monthly exam and I didn't even start touching my newly bought books yet.Still have the beauty aroma of it I guess. xD Well,school's spot check was kinda strict this year,don't know why.Mayb due to the plethora of handphones lost I think,nothing much actually in school.As usual,sleep,lepak,and rarely ponteng class.Consider a good achievement for me.=P No cases being filed so far.LOL.Nevertheless,there's still some people that is still not over of what had happened last year.I hope you're reading this,you asked me to stop talking about it and remain our friendship but ask yourself,what you said to others.I don't want to mention it out here,you should understand yourself.

Girl or Friendship?..You choose yourself.

P.S.:I'm still gonna treat you as a best friend of mine but just to let u

know one thing,I NEVER BACKSTABBED YOU.

It's been quite some time that I never update this old blog.LOL.Life was usual,nothing much.Chinese New Year were okie,unlike last year,totally disaster man.Haha.9 more months and there goes STPM.Still not in a mood to study.LOL.And Valentine's Day is like,in a week time.Gonna be my second year celebrating Valentine alone.(Sucks actually celebrating it alone).But still hoping that there's this pretty angel gonna appeared in front on the day itself.I'm thinking too much maybe,ignore me people.Anyway,I'm still waiting for STPM to finish and here I come,KL.Gonna club till like shit at there.LOL.Till then guys.

School Life Again..Fcuk up!

1 more day to go and yea,back to the prison of education.Daily life gonna be packed again with tuitions and sports practises.Bored.And worse still,STPM.Stupid government exam that made our life tougher. =.=
Anyway,still in a mood to party around and hang out just like the holidays but not that often.Gotta reduce the duration of entertainment and clubbing.Lol.Another one long year for me to load up my education and sit for the freakin exam and there goes my teenage life.Can't wait for my Form 6 life to end and go on with my dream and someone also.Lol.

Credits to Shi Han and Evon.. =P

The Fantastic Four(From the first one the right to the fourth)

Chill aite,I knew u girls gonna kill me with these pictures.But no offense,we shall always reminisce back the past.LOL.Took me quite some time to find and get all these pictures,so,appreciate it ya.

P/S:I don't plan to create this post but since i've got all these pictures

accumulated,why don't I make some special thing for you two.Like

they always said,one stone kills birds right? =D

Fucking bitch,get a life man!

It really pissed me off when I first heard that a close friend of mine was being blamed just because of jealously.I did admit that this thing really concerns me a lot because an innocent victim was being victimized and blamed for out of no reason.Just because of one word,Jealously,it kills and disrupted everything.And it's so childish that they use this kinda way to get people away from their loved ones.Worse part was the person was being a middleperson between two party and spreading rumors,which were totally untrue on both side while she plays the protagonist character.Frankly,that specific person seriously can't stop bitching around,thinking and claiming that she's the best.I'll suggest you what,take a mirror,mirror yourself,and the mirror will break immediately.Accept the fact that you used to be in a forbidden relationship and not all people agree with that,though we are all equal.I'm not being bias or what but this is really getting out of control and clarification is vital.Just hope that the person will stop having that bad perception on my friend and turn over a new leaf.Or I got 4 words for you

Get a life,BITCH!

New Chapter of Life

Shits happen again this time,but it's been settled.So,no worries.Right!I'm back now,to update this old blog.Lol.Camp was exahilirating fun,new friends,memories,love entanglements,conflicts..you name it,everything do happens during camp.Luckilly,it turns out well and doesn't jeopardize the camp.Traplex 2008 was officially over,which means I'm retiring soon from my scouting life.Enjoyed and hated doing it also at the same time,but not to be forgotten,PCGHS Campfire next year,my last year attending campfire and gathering.Haha!.Scouting really do provide and serve me with great memories of the past,doesn't regret joining it.Lol.Conflicts do happen during this whole duration of camp,misunderstandings,jealously,feeling of hatred,so called 'secret-gossip-societies' being established and there goes the birth of rumors,which hit me also.But I'm cool with that,no hard feelings. =D Traplex o8' rawkz guys! Gonna miss y'all guides and scouts out there,especially those that 'modified' my name and post during the first day of camp. xD

Special credits to:

XinLi(Buy eggs for the 'gina' to play) =D

ShiHan aka Dj sHi

Mandy(Understood ler hur what i helped you) =P

Evon(partner-in-crime)

Theresa(your morning breakfast,we still owe you) xD

SueYin(Ms.6th Sense) o.O

TzeLun(gimme very good 'kangtao' on the 1st day of camp) =.=

Zoe aka Ms.Marshmallow

Chammaine aka Ms.Mamarazzi =)

LiMei(I want your hair colour) =>

Mei Wan(you can open a soft drink stalls de) =D

"Getting to know you and being fallen for you in this camp were the two most precious and prestigious treasure I've ever found in my life.You left me in agonizing pain and cures me with your healing touch."

" He is not a lover who does not love forever. "